Hi there. I normally try to keep my blog really positive. I want to improve people’s days, but this post isn’t like this. Just a little warning that this is a huge ramble about broken dreams. Love, Glücksgeist.
I had a job interview for one of my dream jobs yesterday. I’ve actually went there for the second time. The first time they didn’t choose me so I wrote them after a month with a different email for the second time. They didn’t realise that it was me and I went again to a little job interview.
This time I felt so much more prepared and confident and I felt like I can rock this. But two days before my interview, I was so upset and anxious. I couldn’t sleep, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling so sick. The next day I was convinced that I am so sick, nearly too sick to go there. But I went and this time it was amazing. I got to know two amazing girls and we chatted before and after the interview. We laughed so much and I just thought working with these two is going to be so amazing.
Next day I got an email, they choosed someone else….. But they wrote to my first email not the second one for which I was invited again. So maybe they just realized it was me but on the other hand I think writing their for the second time and going to the interview with all your confidence should show how much you want that job. This was the first job I actually wanted.
I had a few jobs before but I didn’t want to have any of these. Going to work wasn’t so much fun, I just did it because I had to. And it involved a lot of crying if I am completely honest with you.
But failing for your dream job is shit! ( I’ve never used that sort of language…. But shit shit shit). I felt horrible today and just like I couldn’t do anything, I felt like a completely loser. And immediately I felt more sick and upset.
My amazing mum then convinced me to go outside and to go to the hairdresser with her and my little sister. I first really didn’t want to go outside but now I am so happy I did it. I feel so much better in my new hair and much more happier as in the morning, but yeah, I am just diappotinted.
The job wasn’t supposed to be a life time job, it was a little job but still, it sucks.
I never talk about something like this on my blog. I want to keep it positive and happy but at the same time I sometimes feel like you don’t really know much about me. So I wanted to share this. I hope your day was amazing!! And if not tomorrow is going to be so much better!
Also a massive thank you for Bea for surprising me with The Get to know Glücksgeist post. She told me that she’s going to upload it a little bit later but then decided to upload it on Monday. This really made me so much happier and gave me so much strength and I just felt so much better on the way to my interview. You are truly amazing Bea! And I am so happy you passed your test.
Thank you Cheila for making me smile with each of your comment. Thank you Abigail for your nice words under my interview with Bea. I love you guys.
Also a massive thank you to everyone who recently commented on my blog. To everyone who wrote that they liked my posts. I really needed it and I really appreciate it, thank you!